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This is horrible because I'm in a tooon of pain but I could not resist replying, I'm sorry LOL

Lestan didn't know either; she was troubled, but tried not to let it show. The unknown had always fascinated her, but it was different when she felt so affected by it. And the thing was, she'd never wanted the unknown to stay unknown. Right now, an explanation felt like something unreachable. The stars, he'd said. How would they ever find out?
But it was easy to let her worries fall away; Lestan was here, Lestan wanted this. He wanted her. She'd thought once that romance was out of reach, that there was no space within her for it to occupy. She realized now that it wasn't a space within her. It was all around her, all around both of them, something warm and alive in its own right. Something wild that they would both need to reach out and tame, if they were brave enough. She wasn't sure if she was ready. But if she didn't reach out — then what?
It would fade, and she would never know what a future with Lestan might look like.
I - She took a breath, and the sentence changed even as she spoke. What she said was not what she'd meant to say at all. I don't want to leave you again. She was shocked by herself, then embarrassed, but she couldn't take it back. She wouldn't.