Bearclaw Valley one who is already beyond life himself

he had insulted his blackbird, and since then, merrick assumed her already greatly weakened favour of him would not be held out. an olive branch he must find, and quickly, before she hated him forever. 
it was not the first time merrick had offended his shadow-bride, but like all twisted things, he wadded up his guilt in the matter and tossed it over his shoulder.
a few bounding minutes later brought him to the neat little cavern where @Evien kept the entire pharmacy for ursus, including poisons that merrick had once wanted to ingest. perhaps he still did. 
"i blew it with her. again," he huffed when he had caught sight of the doctor. "she needs to leave. she needs to go kill something. she clearly hated it there at that meeting, but you know, whatever. i blew it."