Stone Circle Sweet Sunrise

She knew by his question that her explanation was sorely lacking. No - sort of. It's hard to explain. I have this problem, with remembering things... At that Reverie swallowed hard, recalling that even speaking about it was sometimes too much to handle. Maybe she could do it. She was getting better, after all.
It was a casual thought, but then it really struck her. She was getting better, and she'd hardly noticed! It was strange but her confidence was renewed, so she went on. I was young when I left my birthplace, but I don't remember anything past leaving. And coming here. It's been a long time, though. I'm - well, obviously I'm older now! I worry that I'll forget everything again. That I'll wake up one day and I'll be older again and I won't know anyone. So I told Lestan that I didn't want to leave him and that... was a mess. I tried to explain, but he started talking about not being able to leave our homes and spring and,
Here, she had to pause for breath and to gather her thoughts, feeling her explanation was too wandering and cumbersome.
I just wish I hadn't said it. I can't even decide whether I can be in a pack. Now I feel like all my decisions are tied together, and I don't like it. What if I choose the wrong thing somewhere and ruin all of it?