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Panic gripped her as he spoke. He wanted her here. He wanted to protect her. That meant violence — that meant that someone would get hurt, and what kind of fucked up world would make her choose whether she wanted her brother or her lover to fall? Reverie could only look at Lestan for a moment, but she didn't see him. She saw blood, she saw ruin, she saw everything she'd spent her whole life running from.
Okay, Reverie said before she could stop herself. She would have to leave in secret, then. Slip away while Lestan wasn't looking. If - if Akavir and Arric agree, then - I'll stay. And... we can leave together when you're ready. If you want. For a day, perhaps. Then she would leave, and she wouldn't think of how it would hurt Lestan. If the way to keep him safe was to break his heart, then — she would.