Sunbeam Lair [m] So if you care to find me, look to the western sky

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Dated April 2
Please note that if anyone does follow her, she currently cannot be tracked to Sunbeam Lair. Thanks in advance for playing along <3

Reverie left in the dead of night this time. She had traveled through water where she could find it, only stopping to collect her bundle of poisons and leaving no hint as to where she might have gone. She did not want to be pursued.
When she came to the entrance of some vast cavern, Reverie peered within and thought it the perfect place. A hidden place where the light would still reach her. She did not want to suffer in darkness. She did not want to die in shadow. The gilded girl carried her bundle with her as she stepped carefully through the cave, startling at every noise and every shifting of the light. She was nervous.
To be honest, she did not want to die. She wanted to live, even with the pain of losing Lestan. There were other things to live for, she was remembering that. Moss had reminded her.
But this had to end. This twisted sickness which had infected her. These beautiful little sparks which were sucking the light from her. She still wanted them, more than anything, but she knew that she could not bear it. Not alone. Reverie had thought herself stronger than this, but she knew now that she had been wrong. She would always be a coward.
So she settled where she could see the stars, letting their presence soothe her for a few moments before she started to pick at the foul little feast she had brought for herself. Reverie nibbled at the leaves and the flowers first. Eventually she dared to try the berries. She knew the first two of these things, but the berries were new to her. Mystery berries, again, but this time…
Reverie sucked in a breath and waited. It was not long before she felt the effects; first she began to tremble, and there was a dull gnawing pain in her stomach. Her body protested. She did not care. It had betrayed her, and so she sought now to return that betrayal tenfold. There would be pain in this, more pain perhaps than if she had gone to Ashlar, who surely knew what he was doing. But she deserved this, on so many levels. She deserved to feel every moment of it.
And she did.
The pain spread, and grew, and Reverie began to pant softly. She rolled onto her side and stretched out as if that might relieve it. It only worsened as the time wore on. It felt like hours, but it could have been minutes; Reverie was slowly losing all awareness. At some point it became intolerable; somewhere along the way it turned to fire in her veins, fire in blue and gold.
Reverie started to scream.