Rising Sun Valley Wake me

Seeing Tauris's response, Reverie found herself wishing for a fierce moment that someone would take the news happily. It was stupid, really. There was nothing good about this situation. It wasn't planned or wanted or rooted in any sort of stability, all things that Reverie knew were quite important.
Maybe she just wanted someone to be confident in her ability to handle this, to become a mother. But that was stupid too, wasn't it? Reverie was not fit to be a mother. I don't know, More forlorn than ever, but there was a thoughtful quality to her tone. I thought I'd have more time to decide how I feel about motherhood. My own parents - they always told me that was a woman's purpose. To be a wife, and a mother, and nothing else.
They were miserable with each other. I don't want what they had, but I thought... maybe with Lestan, it could be different, He was nothing like her father, and Reverie liked to think that she had very little in common with her own mother. How could it be anything but different? But I don't know anymore. I don't know if he wants that, and I don't know if I trust myself to raise children without him. I forget things sometimes; important things. What if I...
She took in a sharp breath and could not finish the thought. But if I put aside all my fears, I think maybe I'd like to be a mother. To bring a new person into the world and - give them the freedom and support to become what they want. I think that would make me happy. I spent so long surrounded by fear and expectations.