Swiftcurrent Creek How did I lose it when I was right there?

Reverie erupted into snarls and spiked fur the moment Kel touched her. Get away from me! How dare he? As if he had any say over her! She struggled against him for a moment, but it was useless. Even before everything with Blossom, she hadn't been the strongest. Now she was... well, very easy to restrain. She felt that brightness again, flaring inside of her —
She wrenched away from him, and her decision then was akin to forcibly snapping each rib from her chest. Reverie turned to run; to leave Blossom behind, her and Lestan, and take this awfulness with her. Jakoul could feed her. They were better off without her, both of them. Everyone would be so much better off without her.