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She really meant to pay attention to Wraen's answer in full, though she got caught up when her friend said the words, "who looks like he needs a lifelong sentence of peace, rest and boredom..." Towhee felt a strange feeling twisting inside her, a poignant jealousy mixed with a heavy dose of longing. Selfishly, she yearned for a leisurely life.

Towhee didn't even have the emotional range to feel bitter about the mention of Eljay and Maia. "I could use some of that," she murmured without really thinking. "You have no idea how much I want to run away and hide in Brecheliant right now," Towhee admitted despite her resolve not to bitch about her life. It didn't really matter, she doubted there was room for her kind there. She would only disturb the peace just by existing.

"I'm happy for you guys. And jealous. We're struggling to hold onto members here," the Sovereign admitted. Although she knew she had Fennec and her baby daddies near at hand, Towhee couldn't deny the thread of trepidation that wriggled in her chest. "I know we're usually a shitshow but we're really jumping the fucking shark right now."