Redsand Canyon For me to walk away

Time, Towhee sighed, knowing it was the answer nobody wanted to hear. It takes time. I’m a lot older than you and I feel like I’ve only recently started getting better about it… None of this was helpful, she knew.

Deciding she needed to pivot a bit, Towhee mulled carefully before voicing her next thought aloud. Do you think Killer would want you to stay here, if it makes you so unhappy? I don’t want you to go anywhere, believe me, but I do want you to be happy, so if that means… well, maybe he’d understand too?

She didn’t know. She couldn’t speak for her grandson. And Towhee didn’t like the idea of telling Fennec to go. But that was the difference between past Towhee and present Towhee. She could let go these days, let others do whatever they needed to do without taking it so personally and internalizing all the horrible emotions Fen was currently experiencing.

The only way to get to this point, she knew, was by being left again and again until you were basically numb to it. But speaking of bleak, Towhee let that part go unsaid. The implication was already there and that was enough.

Maybe you should talk to him about it? He’s a grownup now, he can handle it. I’m sure he wants to support you, Towhee said, uncertain of so much in this conversation but absolutely sure of at least that much.