Sun Mote Copse Mixed feelings

He didn't take her pointed questions poorly, patiently answering them. Towhee felt guilt welling up inside her again, much worse than what she'd felt about failing to patrol. She should put her issues aside and express joy for her brother's and friend's reunion. She should welcome the probability of their children. She should stop being such a sourpuss.

But it was hard, so hard. "I know you didn't ignore me," she acknowledged. She swallowed. "I really am happy for you. I'm just having a hard time." That was downplaying it quite a lot, though Towhee didn't attempt to rectify her statement. "I swear I'll feel more celebratory in a few days. Now I'm the one who needs time." She paused and admitted. "But not space. I need you here with me, even if I have to share you with Niamh. If I have you guys," she finished, thinking of their kids as well, "I'll be... okay. Eventually."