Ocean's Breath Plateau Said goodbye, turned around

Did she really believe the words coming out of her own mouth? Why was she vomiting them on Rodyn? It was the last thing he needed, or deserved. Towhee felt absolutely disgusted with herself, which resulted in her retreating from his offer of a hug. Her head shook rapidly.

I don’t think I should be here anymore, Rodyn. I’m sorry. I know I said I’d be here for you and the boys, that I’d stay until spring. I’m sorry, she repeated. I’ll visit, once I get my shit together, if she could get her shit together…

She continued backing away, head shaking. Towhee had no idea what was wrong with her or what exactly she needed or planned to do. She thought about going to Phox; he could talk her down. But like Rodyn—and, hell, everyone else but Towhee—he had a lot going on right now. He had a life. And she didn’t want to drag him down with her into this godawful pit.